What I don't understand about myself is that I decide one way, and then I act another, doing things I absolutely despise.Pretty much my daily mantra.
I start out with this goal or that--a commitment--and then I get lured away.
What is behind the lure?
That whisper, from my brain or from some tempting outside voice, says:
But you deserve to do this instead.Mop the floor? You deserve to have a few minutes to yourself.
Assemble that good-for-me recipe? You deserve to spend less time in the kitchen.
Spend 10 minutes just with God? You deserve to play at something you want to do.
At the end of the day, I feel like Paul. How did I fall for that voice yet again? Why did I do the things (or not get done those other things) that leave me with regret?
I only know to recruit help. Paul continues:
So if I can't be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God's command is necessary.God's command? Ask him for help. That I can do:
Lord, help me respond to your voice today, the one that will guide every time I ask. Help me shut out the voice of "what I deserve."Comments are welcome at feedyourstrength@gmail.com.
