sabotage when it is directed at something about ourselves.Let's say you hate that thing about yourself that others have made fun of or otherwise called attention to for your entire life.
You suffer, mainly silently, but agonize over why God allowed it to be this presence in your life.
We have this secret competition with ourselves to be better, smarter, more good-looking, more successful than...we are.
Because we can't meet our self-imposed standard, which is usually ridiculously high, we punish ourselves with hatred and constant admonishment. It is exhausting to hate something about yourself.
I came across this quote:
My goal is to be faithful, not successful.What if God allows this thing you hate to be present in your life to lead you into faithfulness?
What if each day begins with:
Lord, help me grow faithfulness in place of this hatred toward myself.God made the rose along with the thorns, but I bet He intended us to focus on the beauty of the flower.
