14 March 2013

Breakage and Starvation--Day 4

A starving mind, body or heart has one goal:
Find that which will relieve the discomfort, even agony, of starvation.
When one is left in the numbing breakage of a marriage, hunger of the heart sets in. Where there was a mate, there is a void. Once a best friend--now tragically a virtual enemy. The heart lost its partner.

What best serves a starving heart?

The world has an answer:
Inoculate. Do whatever it takes to deaden the pain.
I tried this route. It led to even more numbing breakage.

The real rescue unit, however, comes more like a whisper:
Be still. Do not avoid the pain. Know that, even though you cannot see, I am walking with you and have a plan to carry you through.
Though I barely got through many days, I decided this was my best hope. I began to call on God, cry out to God, beg God--to take away the pain, carry me through the pain, whatever would bring relief to my breakage.

Starvation sent me into a pain cycle that can gave me the momentum--even desperation--to let God speak into my life. I began to sit for 5-10 minutes a day, speaking into silence, hoping God was listening.

A gentle recovery began.

Perhaps we haven't needed Him before. Perhaps we have even consciously rejected Him. But the grace of God means that He is always there, waiting to accompany our starving hearts out of numbing breakage into a new space with life-saving oxygen and healing vapors.

Starvation has a goal:
Find that which will relieve the discomfort, even agony, of starvation.
Consider the rescue unit that knows your heart best.

Tomorrow: restoring the image of you.

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